CONTRIBUTORS

Born in Los Angeles and raised in Ventura County, I returned to the City of Angels to not have money somewhere else. I am a reading instructor for children with learning differences, and a writer at game developer Astronaut T-Rex on a yet unannounced project. I am a graduate of the Creative Writing program at California State University, Long Beach, where I worked as a writer on two student published video games and won the James I Murashige Memorial Award for my short story “Shimmer in the Dark”. My work explores themes such as identity construction, faith and doubt, and mental illness. I like cats.
CARMIEL BANASKY is the author of the novel The Suicide of Claire Bishop (Dzanc, 2015), which Publishers Weekly calls "an intellectual tour de force." Her work has appeared in Glimmer Train, The Guardian, American Short Fiction, Slice, Guernica, PEN America, The Rumpus, and on NPR, among other places. She earned her MFA from Hunter College, where she also taught Creative Writing. She is the recipient of awards and fellowships from Bread Loaf, Ucross, Ragdale, Artist Trust, I-Park, and other foundations. After four years on the road at writing residencies, she now teaches, edits, and writes in Los Angeles. She is from Portland, Oregon.  http://www.carmielbanasky.com
I’m the author of Tender Points, a book-length lyric essay about chronic pain, trauma, and rape culture. I host a reading series called Amy’s Kitchen Organics, and co-organize community events like 2016’s Sick Fest, a day of performances and talks by sick and disabled artists and writers. I’m the founding editor of Mondo Bummer Books and the author of You Don’t Have to Publish to Be a Publisher: An Autobiography of Mondo Bummer, an eohippus labs pamphlet. In 2014, I was the inaugural Writer in Residence at Alley Cat Bookstore & Gallery. I live in a rent-controlled apartment in San Francisco, where I’m working on my second book. More at http://www.amyberko.com.
This might sound cliche but ever since I was about 10 years old, playing with my dad's super 8mm camera…I was hooked. I remember sitting in the dark living room, draping a white sheet over a few chairs. Watching my father set up the film projector and watching home movies together. The sound of the projector motor and film wheels turning. The smell of the film. The colorful light bouncing off of the walls. Watching the dust settle in the beam of light from the projector. At that point, I knew I wanted to make movies. Now 35 years old, I’ve been fortunate enough to work alongside some of the greatest directors, cinematographers and editors who have stretched me and my ability as a filmmaker.

From documentaries to commercial work, story has always been king. And my own personal life experiences truly help drive my storytelling. Life hasn’t always been the kindest, but I try to find the silver lining and play the hand I am dealt in the journey I am on. I believe there’s beauty in transparency. I’ve been thru divorce. My son has grown up in a broken home. I’m now remarried with 3 kids. My wife Amber recently had 2 biopsies because doctors believed she had cancer. Our family has moved 5 times in one year due to extremely serious health issues. It’s been heartbreaking and exhausting to say the least, but it’s lit a fire inside to inspire others thru film.

When ENDPAIN came along in the summer of 2016, it was no coincidence. Their platform allows us as directors, not only to flex our creative muscle, but to impact others thru stories of inspiration and hope. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a blast creating brand films for clients or fictional narrative & short films. But the chance to make an impression on someone's life thru making film, is an incredible honor that I don’t take lightly. I believe my films for ENDPAIN will encourage others to find that same silver lining, and look beyond the immediate pain they’re experiencing to find hope.
I have long been interested in the motivations of people. What drives them to do what they do. I believe all good art and meaningful experiences come from something deep inside a person. Often times all the world sees of us is our actions, but the core feeling behind that is rooted in pain. We seek to heal ourselves with the gifts we were given or have learned. There is an undeniable history of damaged people and moving art. The true human condition must be lived first, in order to be expressed in a pure way. ENDPAIN has been kind enough to let me explore short stories centered around these themes.

I myself have seen dark times. At the age of 10 I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, at 11 I was mentally hospitalized for 6 months. At 16 I was expelled for acting out. Put in a behavioral school, and then hospitalized again, this time in isolation. Being bipolar, and having had a dark past allowed me to use my craft to express my frustrations and feelings to the world, and I believe myself to be a better person because of it. That is why I connect so deeply to these stories. I hope people can see the small piece of my pain expressed in my craft. I hope they are able to use these films to spark something inside them into a fire. Igniting a passion, and healing through it.”
I grew up in Guadalajara, Mexico, and then moved to New York City to study Photography at Parsons the New School for Design, where I earned my BFA in 2012. I am an artist working with photography, video, and works on paper. I often source magazines and videos to create multimedia works with. I enjoy shooting with film and looking for old equipment to create with. There is nothing more exciting to me than the thrill of looking through freshly developed negatives and scanning them until the final reveal. My work has been published in Capricious Magazine (2012), Musée Magazine (2011), Field Trip Magazine (2011), American Photo Magazine (2010), among others. I currently live and work in Los Angeles.
I was born in South Australian and have lived in Melbourne, Sydney and Canberra. My novel in stories, ‘Barking Dogs’ (Affirm Press) is set in the town of Mount Barker in the Adelaide Hills, where I live with my family. My short fiction has been published widely, most recently in Best Australian Stories, Australian Book Review and Something Special, Something Rare: Outstanding Short Stories by Australian Women (Black Inc.). I hold a BA in Aboriginal Studies and a PhD in Creative Writing from the University of Adelaide. I have taught creative writing in schools, libraries and Universities, including at the University of Texas in Austin.
 
http://affirmpress.com.au/publishing/rebekah-clarkson/
 
ENDPAIN has been an amazing experience for me as a director. As a platform, it's given me the chance to branch out of my comfort zone and find unique and interesting stories that I never would have otherwise found. I can't wait to see what the platform evolves to, and finding more great stories to share.
Edie Fake is an artist living in the California high desert.

 
I am best known for my extensive sports writing, with my own website. I am a Los Angeles-based educator whose past careers include full-time journalist and fitness trainer. An avid athlete, I have a deep passion for working out, activity and healthy living. I am a voracious reader, a keen observer and a compassionate soul. I hail from the Pacific Northwest.
I recently earned my M.F.A. in Fiction at Columbia University. My work has appeared in The Believer logger, The Toast, Limestone, The Sonder Review, Two Serious Ladies, The Rumpus, Gigantic, The Millions, Cosmonauts Avenue, and Slice Magazine. My short story, 'Speculoos,' was nominated for a Pushcart Prize in 2017. I am currently working on a novel and live in Brooklyn, New York.
I am interested in the home, comfort, and the strangeness that happens when contemplating a familiar space for a length of time.  I am interested in exploring how my mind selectively focuses on the often overlooked and very ordinary spaces.  The possibilities of a space are controlled in recognizable images, manipulated and condensed.  I hope that the paintings are strange and possibly comforting, forcing the viewer to slow down in order to see and understand something common that has become invisible.  They are quiet and still.  I look at and think about the light, patterns, and rhythms and try to access an atmosphere of wonder and contemplation.
I am an illustrator and comic artist working in New York City. I was born in Kyoto, Japan and studied illustration at Savannah College of Art and Design.

Photo by Yoshiki Nakano
I am an illustrator with a BFA in Illustration from Pacific Northwest College of Art.  I was born and raised in Des Moines, Iowa.  Using playful pattern and texture, my work is charmingly unsophisticated.  These days I'm living in (and loving) Los Angeles. 
My name is Grace Lynne an I am a LA based Artist and Designer who specializes in social impact design. I utilize art to create empathy with the viewer, and to spread awareness on issues that many people don't know of. My main focus is to use art and design as a tool for impact, and self awareness. Art and politics go hand in hand in my creativity. Work that stimulates dialogue and immerses the viewer in a new perspective is my main goal when creating. I also love to collaborate and work with other artists on similar missions to strive for change. 
My name is Sarah Hiatt – I’m an artist born and raised in southwest Missouri. My work focuses on the physical and psychological development throughout childhood; and I’m interested in themes of transition, identity, and loss. Literature, films, and folk music – especially those that are surrounded by existentialist ideas, often motivate me in my work. I am currently an MFA candidate in the photography department at Columbia College Chicago, and will complete my degree in the spring of 2017. 
 
Santi Elijah Holley has contributed to Tin House, VICE, SmokeLong Quarterly, Monkeybicycle, NAILED, and Pacifica Literary Review, among other periodicals. He is a regular contributor to Portland, Oregon's alternative weekly newspaper, The Portland Mercury; and he is a recipient of the 2017 Oregon Literary Fellowship. A native of Southeast Michigan, Holley has lived in Portland since 2004.

Photo by Vikesh Kapoor
I was born and raised in Camarillo, California. I am the third of four children. At the age of seven, I can recall watching The Oscars and wanting to be involved in the film industry. After letter my parents know of my dreams, I was immediately placed in pop warner football and told that child actors grow up to be weird. It wasn’t until the age of fifteen that I became involved in theatre and truly enjoyed the arts. From there, I started to audition for commercials and movies and soon became a part of SAG. I did this for seven years before I decided to leave and travel through Europe. For the next couple of years I traveled throughout Germany, Croatia, and Italy, as well as studying Language Arts in Siena, Italy. After I could no longer financially live there, I moved back home and worked for my family in construction. Knowing that this was not what I wanted to do for the rest of my life, I applied to Brooks Institute of Photography. After three years studying, I was obtained my BA in Film with a concentration in Commercial.

It was during my last year and a half of school that I had the opportunity to film six firefighters ride their bikes across the US. The bike ride, also known as the Ride for 9-11, turned into one of my biggest accomplishments to date, completing a feature length documentary, “Let’s Roll”. It was my directorial debut and also won me my first award at Newport Beach Film Festival. Shortly after, I was hired to direct a family film, Designer Pups”. I currently work with ENDPAIN on short documentaries and interview pieces.
San Franciscan living in Los Angeles. Dad to two busy boys (5 and 7), Photographer, '71 Buick Skylark owner...
Clay Kerrigan is a poet, writer, editor, and teacher living in Los Angeles. He received his MFA in Creative Writing from CalArts. He currently earns a living as freelance writer, a writing instructor at both Los Angeles City College and Glendale Community College, and as a copyeditor for Litmus Press.
I first visited Indonesia in 2008. After teaching at Andalas University in West Sumatra, I journeyed the length of the country in 2011, a trip my first book, Leaving Indonesia, is based on. I studied Political Science at Marymount University in Virginia and Education at the University of Notre Dame. 

I grew up in Yonkers, New York and now live in Brooklyn.  I am self-employed. I spend every winter in Asia: China to find pearls for my business, and Indonesia to relax, see friends, and read. 

On weekends, from St. Patty’s Day through Christmas, I sell my pearl jewelry on 39 Prince Street in Manhattan at the NoLita Outdoor Artisan Market.

Learn more at kevinlee-writer.com
Tim Lewis is a Los Angeles-based writer, producer, and performer with an MFA from UCLA's School of Theater, Film, and Television. Tim's perspective as an artist is influenced by his experience growing up gay and in church in rural America, and then attending a Christian liberal arts college. After a decade of tearing apart the worldview he was given as a child, he's begun weaving a new one through his writing. 

website: http://www.tdlew1s.com

IG & Twitter: tdlew1s


Photo by Travis Jensen
I was born and raised in Portland, Oregon. I lived for a time in Vermont but currently reside in North Portland with my girlfriend and daughter. At times a TJ Maxx associate, grocery clerk, outdoor school instructor, organic farmer, apprentice electrician, student teacher, and teddy bear salesman, I currently work as a web developer and writer. My debut novella Cult of Loretta came out in May 2015 from Lazy Fascist Press. My fiction has appeared or is forthcoming in Hobart, Barrelhouse, The Literary Review, Vol. 1 Brooklyn, and a number of other journals and anthologies. 
I'm a portrait and travel photographer living in New York City. I enjoy optimism, camping, weird America, forgotten cities and my Russian Blue, Jesse. My work explores the beauty within the ordinary.
I’ve always been a “people watcher”… hmm that sounds creepy. What I mean is that people have always fascinated me. I often spend a good amount of time observing people and proceed to make up stories for each and every one, whether in line at the bank or grabbing drinks with friends. I wonder what’s their name? Where are they from? Where are they going? Are they a dog person or a cat person? Maybe they have pet penguins that they keep in a giant ice box like that book, "Mr. Popper’s Penguins”. You can see how my mind wonders, so needless to say I’ve always been a bit of a daydreamer.

My grandfather armed me with a camera when I was just discovering this fascination so I suppose it was inevitable that I would become a director and as serendipity would have it, working with ENDPAIN, a brand who’s slogan is literally, “What’s Your Story?”

You can find me at http://www.tjmauck.com
I write about humans and other animals. My short story collection, Holiday in Cambodia (Black Inc. 2013), explores the electric zone where local and foreign lives meet. Holiday in Cambodia has been shortlisted for three national book awards in Australia, including the New South Wales Premier’s Literary Awards, the Queensland Literary Awards and the Asher Award 2015 for books on an anti-war theme. One of the stories won the 2011 Alan Marshall short story award. You can also find my work in The Best Australian Stories, Award Winning Australian Writing, The North American Review and J Journal. I am currently a PhD candidate at the University of Melbourne, Australia. http://www.laurajeanmckay.com
I have been a professional filmmaker since graduating from the University of Southern California's film school in 2011, splitting work equally between directing, writing, and cinematography. My work often has an emphasis in empathy and human connection, probably from experiencing so many different platforms and families of the American life while moving around the country as a child. My affinity for ENDPAIN's message was innate and resonant within all of my work even before our collaborations, hence our eventual pairing was perhaps inevitable.

I currently reside in Venice Beach, close to good friend and constant collaborator Travis Mauck (Creative Director of ENDPAIN) whom I've worked with since 2010. In addition to writing and directing my first narrative feature film this year, I'm hoping to begin documenting stories of human resilience and passion for ENDPAIN internationally to compliment my previous American work.
Hey everyone! I’m a UCLA student graduating in 2018 with a major in Microbiology, Immunology and Molecular Genetics. I am SoCal raised, pursuing a career in public health or medicine. I’m a fan of international travel, watercolor painting, and dramatic TV —Game of Thrones and The Bachelor both count! As an English minor and lead reporter for the Daily Bruin, I also love to write. Hear some of my noise on aspeck-ofstardust.blogspot.com.

At age eleven, I was diagnosed with type 1 juvenile diabetes – an incurable, genetic disease. Since then, I’ve worn an insulin pump 24/7 and grown active with advocacy and academic research. I truly want to be a source of emotional, creative, and professional support for those weathering the challenges of chronic illness. Our struggles may heavily shape us, but we can actively choose to accept adversity as extra color in the canvas of our lives.
Katie Orlinsky is a photographer from New York City. She received a Bachelors degree in Political Science and Latin American Studies from Colorado College and a Masters degree in Journalism from Columbia University. Katie’s long-held interest in international politics and a desire to raise awareness on social issues originally led her to photography, and after college she moved to Mexico where she got her start as a photographer. Katie is currently working on a long-term project about climate change in Alaska. She regularly works for the New York Times, the New Yorker, the Wall Street Journal, National Geographic, Le Monde and a variety of international non-profit organizations. She is a represented artist with Levine/Leavitt management. 
Hi, I'm Laura! I attended a photojournalism program that was based on injustice and poverty after high school, which left me with a moral obligation to better the world. I just so happen to be type 1 diabetic and decided to use my experience as a professional diabetic and photographer to start something exciting! I was a very fortunate little diabetic with infinite support and love from everyone around me. However, there are a lot of people who are just my type that aren’t as fortunate. So that’s why I started this project--to show everyone how relatable their crazy and embarrassing diabetic experiences are.

http://www.gofundme.com/yourejustmytype

Photo by Michael Watkins (Two Vivid Photography)
E. Darcy writes in a 1924 schoolhouse repurposed into an artist’s shack. Previous writing appears or will appear shortly in Quiddity Journal and Public Radio program, Eleven Eleven, Utne Reader, Rodale Press, Laurel Review (Greentower Press), R.KV.R.Y, Burrow Press, Foliate Oak, Juked, Pithead Chapel, Superstition Review, Agave, Eclectica, Ginosko, New Plains, Lunch Ticket, Weber, Kaleidoscope, Mount Hope Literary Magazine, Cease Cows, Emrys Journal, Magnolia Review, Weber: The Contemporary West, Still Point Arts Quarterly, and elsewhere. Darcy holds a Master of Arts in Writing.

photo by Sarah Clawson Schuch

 
Victor Yates is a writing workshop instructor, educator, and freelance writer. He won the 2016 Lambda Literary Award for LGBT Debut Fiction. In 2012, Yates had two poems published in the anthology, For Colored Boys, which won the American Library Association’s Stonewall Book Award-Israel Fishman Non-Fiction in 2013. He’s the recipient of a City of West Hollywood City grant, Ahmanson Foundation grant, and the Elma Stuckey Writing Award. His writing has appeared in Windy City Times, Edge, and Message.

Photo by Steve Chavarria
I’m a writer, director, producer who began her career in television, producing for the Travel Channel, History Channel, E!, A&E, Cooking Channel, FX, and Fox Movie Channel. My experience spans from notable shows including the longrunning educational series Modern Marvels to the investigative two- hour documentary O.J. Speaks: The Hidden Tapes. I’ve written and directed two short films about living in New York City and co-directed my first feature length documentary, Company Town, a film Sundance says “could literally save lives.” I’m currently a producer at Kin Community, a digital content company, whose message is to help you make your way home. I’m also the owner and creative mind behind Sweet Little Nothings xo- a greeting card company whose mission is to bring love and kindness to the world by one simple, thoughtful gesture. I continue fulfilling my work telling human stories and am passionate about creating awareness and change in the world.
I am an artist and illustrator from Los Angeles.  I pull inspiration from human emotions, nature, and surreal self reflection, portraying them into expressive drawing and ink works.
I'm a writer, editor, and homodocumentarian, as well as a poet and aspiring Carmen San Diego. I serve as the second-in-command at Hello Mr., and have written for Buzzfeed, Vice, Broadly, GOOD, The Cut, The Offing, and The Iowa Review. Follow my work and newsletter at http://www.ImFran.com and elsewhere @fransquishco.
I started writing because one Thanksgiving our local grocery store had a poetry contest for kids. I don’t remember there being an actual prize other than the acclaim and recognition of Buttrey's. The whole creative "process" was hard because there are very few words that rhyme with Turkey and Pilgrim (and, at age 10, I quickly came to realize that writing is, overall, a fucking pain in the ass). Anyway, I came in 3rd and they put my poem on a wall near the deli section. It was intoxicating – not the fame part, just the fact that my work was being read. I've been chasing that high ever since.

As an adult, I’ve had several short stories and essays published (some you can read for free on my website patricktobin.net). I adapted one of my stories into a screenplay that eventually became the movie CAKE, which starred Jennifer Aniston as a character with chronic pain.
An artist, curator, editor, and the youngest of eleven siblings, I was raised in a small town on the outskirts of Zacatecas Mexico. My determination manifested itself at an early age of 12 when I left home for Los Angeles. Traveling back and forth from LA to Mexico became my way of life—a way of nomadic stability. With one bag still packed, I now call Brooklyn home, but my commercial practice continues to lead me all over the world. These consistent breaks of time and space are sewn into the fabrics of my work.  I use the camera to reconstruct the past—to fill in the gaps, importing a worldview inflected with a freshness of vision and technique. My approach to color and texture emulates a structured slippage of heritage. Building upon the dichotomy of my Mexican heritage and American education, I weave together an uncanny modality of childhood innocence across culture, place and time.
 
Bio by
Michi Jigarjian
 
Born and raised in Los Angeles, I studied art history at UCLA and received a master's degree in history from Pepperdine. I began writing essays after the death of my oldest brother, Michael, exploring the themes of loss and meaning. My work has been published in The New York Times and Alpinist. 
Photo by Meghan Fien