Directed By Nick Cavalier
I have long been interested in the motivations of people. What drives them to do what they do. I believe all good art and meaningful experiences come from something deep inside a person. Often times all the world sees of us is our actions, but the core feeling behind that is rooted in pain. We seek to heal ourselves with the gifts we were given or have learned. There is an undeniable history of damaged people and moving art. The true human condition must be lived first, in order to be expressed in a pure way. ENDPAIN has been kind enough to let me explore short stories centered around these themes.

I myself have seen dark times. At the age of 10 I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, at 11 I was mentally hospitalized for 6 months. At 16 I was expelled for acting out. Put in a behavioral school, and then hospitalized again, this time in isolation. Being bipolar, and having had a dark past allowed me to use my craft to express my frustrations and feelings to the world, and I believe myself to be a better person because of it. That is why I connect so deeply to these stories. I hope people can see the small piece of my pain expressed in my craft. I hope they are able to use these films to spark something inside them into a fire. Igniting a passion, and healing through it.”
Featuring Billy Bonnell
Class Clown

Class Clown

Stand-up comedian, Billy Bonnell, opens his set by asking, “Hey, who here wants to live forever?” The audience is silent. “That’s how I know depression is real.” Billy punches, and they crowd bursts into hysterics, exemplifying the undeniable connection between laughter and pain. In this short-film, Billy tells the story of how a series of family tragedies led him to finding release from his depression by making light of his pain.

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