MY LIFE UNCOILED

WRITTEN BY TAYLOR EYEWALKER
Photos By Mariana Schulze
My Life UNCOILED

I am sitting with you, quietly, and you are sitting with me, open and between us there is nothing but space and the possibility to explore one another. I want nothing more than to ask you questions about how you feel, what you’re inspired by and what you want to create in your big bright shining future. I want the same from you too. I crave to know you, to feel your humanity, because it’s that in understanding yours, I understand my own. You dear human, have taught me everything about myself.

For as long as I can remember I’ve wanted to know about the “other.” In another life I may have been a really solid Private I and through my twenties, that skill of excavation and investigation showed up as having friends that were “projects”, people whose lives I could help improve by fine tuning their rough edges. Now that I’ve become a little bit older and a little bit wiser, I see my focus on you was to divert the attention away from myself. Your messy, beautiful life made mine seem much more together and grounded, I felt solace in that. My questions and problem solving regarding your experience of life helped me glean a greater understanding of my own life. I felt how intense it was to feel myself. Knowing more about you helped me feel some sort of safety in this giant world of chaos swirling amidst infinite possibilities.

NOW THAT I’VE BECOME A LITTLE BIT OLDER AND A LITTLE BIT WISER, I SEE MY FOCUS ON YOU WAS TO DIVERT THE ATTENTION AWAY FROM MYSELF.

With nothing else to see as the catalyst other than years of self-abandonment as a young woman, I decided to get real and look at my patterns. With the help of mentorship, kundalini yoga practice and some really far out boyfriends, I began to look at how I was feeling inside of my own body, about my own life and understood every moment of intimacy with you and heartfelt conversations had a limitation, because I myself could only go so deep. In that moment, I understood my passion for intimacy… with myself. All that seeking, all that desire to know you was a direct reflection of how deeply I wanted to know myself. I was waiting for that very moment when I gave myself permission to “turn on the lights.” This was the beginning of evolving my life’s work, which I now call The UNCOIL Method. I never knew my greatest strength and greatest weakness would then fuse to give me a sense of divine purpose. It’s perfect really, I bet if you explored your own life, you’d share that sameness.

The UNCOIL method calls you into witnessing the intimacy you share with yourself. It requires you first and foremost to show up to your own life, without diverting the attention away from your own personal experience, so that you may go inward to gain center and as a result cultivate a sovereign relationship with yourself. It isn’t an easy process of getting to know who you are. We have years of programming through our parental upbringing and societal structure and to sift through the karma that our tiny little bodies hold can sometimes feel like a massive mountain to climb. But it can be a graceful process of uncovering, you can be held amidst all your stretching and growing and be reminded again and again, you’re not alone. We deserve to be reminded of that in a world that continually becomes more isolating. We are not alone in this growth process of getting to know ourselves, because when we get to know ourselves more deeply, we have the potentiality of cultivating a deeper connection with another. Which if we were really honest, we would see that relationships are the very reason for living! Because without you, you would not enjoy my song and, I, your artwork, and we together could not create something beautiful for others to enjoy, to heal and to grow. When we see that cultivating intimacy with oneself and another is the beginning to healing the wounds of our culture, we’re grasping more of the truth.

INTIMACY ASKS YOU TO DARE TO SHOW UP TO THOSE EMOTIONS THAT WELL UP WITHIN YOUR BODY AND HAVE THE STRENGTH TO LOOK AT THEM, SELF-ASSESS AND DISSOLVE THOSE AVOIDANCE PATTERNS.

Intimacy asks you to show up for what you are feeling and experiencing in any given moment. Intimacy asks you to dare to show up to those emotions that well up within your body and have the strength to look at them, self-assess and dissolve those avoidance patterns. And that is the work I do, I keep getting real with myself moment to moment, so I can keep supporting you to go deeper within you. Your life UNCOILED helps you birth those dreams that float around in your mind as an idea taking up precious real estate. Your life UNCOILED looks like freeing yourself from your own self imposed limitations, your unsteady emotional state, your neediness when you have trouble finding love within. Your life UNCOILED looks like you coming into wholeness, true fulfillment and that is my greatest wish for you in this life dear human.

If you are ready to UNCOIL, Taylor is joining together a group of women for training starting March 31st in Los Angeles. Find out more by visiting, www.tayloreyewalker.com.

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